Producer

Happy day after Valentine’s Day Everyone!  Have you all hit the stores for discount chocolate?  That’s what I’d normally be doing, but my diet is keeping me on a bit of a tighter leash.

I’m still plugging away on my script.  Deadlines for Script PIMP, Scriptapalooza and the Early Deadline for FinalDraft are all fast approaching.

So I’m taking a bit of time to update everyone on what’s going on….

I’ve got a bit of a dental problem… it’s cosmetic, and my dentist, the best in the whole county, has a bit of a waiting list, so I won’t be in until mid March.  It’s a bit of a pain, but still nice to think I’ll be putting it off until then just from a pain point of view.  Not so much from a headshot point of view, though I’m thinking if I wanted to go ahead, the problem could be fixed with retouching.

I’m helping fund (for an associate producer credit) a documentary on the homeless problem in Sacramento.  Trevor Morgan is doing it, and I’m a huge fan of his.  I truly believe he’s going to be around, working on quality projects for a long time.  Other people contributing are Will Canon, Paul James and Jake McDorman.  It’s nice to think that while I’m not a working actor, people only a few links away are, and it’ll be cool to see my name next to theirs in the credits.

You can catch the trailer for the upcomming (and I'm so excited!) Bortherhood, written and directed by Will Canon, starring Trevor Morgan, Jon Foster and Lou Taylor Pucci.  I've been waiting for this since it was concieved as a short named Roslyn.

I'm just link crazy today, aren't I?

I’ve been working my ass off, literally, trying to lose weight.  One worthy investment?  Sketchers Shape-Ups.  Four weeks and my calves are constantly killing me, my butt is smaller, and I can even feel it in my lower back.  While I can see a difference, the scale seems a little hesitant to confirm it. 

Valentine’s was wonderful.  The Lawyer Bf took me out to dinner.  It was nice, mostly low key.  I’m not big on the V-day thing., minus the sale chocolate afterwards, that is.  But he is, so we celebrated and now I'm glad we did.

On the other hand, a close friend decided to separate from her husband, so it’s a bit of a damper.  CJ, my Bestie, is moving in with her BF of a year.  While I may have my problems with him, mostly political (he’s a super conservative – complete with homophobia and the works) I’m happy she’s happy.

Two Weeks of Panic

I have two weeks until I need to be finished with my screenplay.  Two weeks until the deadlines for two of the nine competitions/fellowships i'm submitting for.  The dates slowly roll out until the beginning of May.
I having serious anxiety attacks here.  Sometimes they're full blow panic.
I can't decide what i think anymore.
I'm so invested, so well versed in every scene, every line, that I can no longer continue to even pretend to look at it objectively. 
Sometimes I read through and I love it. I can actually picture making the semi finalists for the Nicholl Fellowship.  I can see myself at Sundance's writers lab. 
Other times, I can only picture the reader pitching it into the trash at page seven.  Then laughing and downing a bottle of wine to forget about it.  Then lighting the script on fire in the waste basket, using the last drops of wine as fuel for the fire.
I like to think of it as Waitress meets 500 Days of Summer with a dash of Juno (and oddly, no pregnancy).  But then I wonder if someone else reads it and sees.....  I dont even know.
D-wars?   But it would be worse, because D-wars knew what it was, and my script is just pretending.
I'm calculating the fees.  Between copyrighting and entry fees it's really starting to add up.
Two weeks.

Hearts and Candy

So it’s the start of a new month, in the New Year.  I feel unproductive.

Frebruary makes me feel pink.  And fluffy.  And like I actually deserve to eat all that chocolate.  This wont be good for my behind.

March 1^st makers the cut of date for multiple festivals and fellowships.  I have exactly one month (The short one, too) to get my ducks in a row, and my screenplay in tip top shape.

Here’s the thing:  I thought it was coming along well.  I really did.  But while I was in the shower yesterday I started thinking about how my complete product is nothing like the screenplay I set out to write.  And then I read the last draft of 500 Days of Summer.  It blew my mind.  Mine pales in comparison, that’s if one could even compare the two.  It was a hit, it really was.  Afterwards all I wanted to do was cry.

I’ve been working a lot.  We’re losing shifts next week, so I’m trying to get in as many as I can before that.  I’m looking at a minimum of $400 in entry fees.  So I guess its good I’m working.

Anyway, I’ve set a few goals for the month.

-Finish this draft of my screenplay.

-Register it with WGA. 

-Submit it.

-Meet with photographers and book a date for headshots.

-Commit to at least one class.