I have two weeks until I need to be finished with my screenplay. Two weeks until the deadlines for two of the nine competitions/fellowships i'm submitting for. The dates slowly roll out until the beginning of May.
I having serious anxiety attacks here. Sometimes they're full blow panic.
I can't decide what i think anymore.
I'm so invested, so well versed in every scene, every line, that I can no longer continue to even pretend to look at it objectively.
Sometimes I read through and I love it. I can actually picture making the semi finalists for the Nicholl Fellowship. I can see myself at Sundance's writers lab.
Other times, I can only picture the reader pitching it into the trash at page seven. Then laughing and downing a bottle of wine to forget about it. Then lighting the script on fire in the waste basket, using the last drops of wine as fuel for the fire.
I like to think of it as Waitress meets 500 Days of Summer with a dash of Juno (and oddly, no pregnancy). But then I wonder if someone else reads it and sees..... I dont even know.
D-wars? But it would be worse, because D-wars knew what it was, and my script is just pretending.
I'm calculating the fees. Between copyrighting and entry fees it's really starting to add up.
Two weeks.
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