Now For a Glass of Red

I feel old.  Like, every day i feel old.
I look at kids graduating from High School and I'm actually jealous of them.  This is sad.  Because kids from high school are naive, they lack in experience, and in general, they're kind of obnoxious.  But hey, they wont worry about the beginnings of wrinkles around their eyes and on their foreheads.
I'm only 24.  24 is not a time to feel old.
I also feel broke.  Because in the last month I've literally spent the cost of my car repairing it (well, almost).  I've run up my credit cards to replace my computer which totally crapped out on me.  And I'm still covering the last few hundred dollars to get my teeth all shiny and straight.
The Lawyer BF, as amazing as he is, is looking for work.  He wants to enter into this internship like arrangement with the county DA.  Of course, this is non paid. 
He at least has a job.  A job where he was promoted twice within 6 months.  Something I'm insanely jealous of because there is no way to move up at my own job.

Anyway, that's the ranting.
Bottom line, we're putting off the move for six months.  The goal now is the new year.  While I'm sad, I also know moving to a place with no employment and 3k in the hole will not work.
I'm planning to make myself a game plan for the summer.  I've also decided not to put off classes until I move, but to start them now and just commute the what?  1.5-4 hour drive depending on time of day.
God, that's a lot of time in a car.
Now, I'm off to drink away my sorrows.

I Am Now the Girlfriend of a Lawyer

Let the jokes commence!
In seriousness, my wonderful boyfriend worked his ass off and passed the California State Bar.  He's worked harder than anyone I've ever known in my life and he deserves it.
Amongst the celebration last night we discussed the future.
It was nice to reaffirm the plan.  The moving plan, the school plan, the life plan.
We could be planted down in LA as soon at June, though hopefully no later than the end of July.
All of a sudden I'm in a bit of a panic.
My car needs work, like, serious work.  I have most of my credit cards paid down, I have a few hundred dollars set aside for beginners headshots and classes. 
But financially, it just doesn't seem like enough.
So I plan on working like a fiend.  And reading everything I can get my hands on until then. 
Unfortunately, it seems like everyone I've ever walked past on the street is getting married between now and August.  It makes working weekends really difficult.
But this is a time for excitement!  And I plan on spending the day with a bottle of champagne. 

Eggs and Chocolate? Yes, Please

I once saw an interview with Katy Perry when she likened invisalign with a Sumo Wrestler sitting on ones head.
At the time I thought "Oh you drama queen, Kay Perry."  Alas, she's right.  In my life I've been run over by a car, broken bones and had an extremely painful root canal after a weekend of extreme pain.  I swear my mouth hurts more than any of those other things.
Like, ten Sumo wrestlers sitting on my head.  It's painful, but I'm taking before and after pictures. 
I binged on eggs and chocolate and those amazing starburst jelly beans for two days.
And now I feel sick.  And fat.  And depressed that I actually convinced myself that calories over the holidays don't count because everyone has them.  Well, they do.  And everyone gets fat.  And then I'm more depressed that I cant think like that all the time.
The Lawyer BF gets his bar results in less than three weeks.
Hopefully he'll land an LA based job, and we'll be relocated by the end of June.
He mentioned a potential job up east of San Luis Obispo and I laughed.  Right in his face.
You know, I'm cool with Camarillo.  Ventura I can live with, hell I can even make Santa Barbara work.  But the middle of bum-fuck-nowhere.  Not gonna happen.  This isn't even potential career driven.  It's not family and friends driven, it's all in the interest of saving my own sanity.  I will go to an Orly Taitz level of insanity that far away from the coast.  I will die inside, and then out.
And Katy Perry's the drama queen.